im 19 years old. i finished high school and have yet to start college. i have all the paperwork done and ready to go and college is basically paid for but i feel like something is holding me back. you would think i would jump right into college and be social and pretty much have a life. i have been out of highschool for a year and yet have no urg to continue and to progress. sure i want alot of “things” and i want to go alot of places. i feel like i want so much that i cant choose a path. i want to be a nurse but at the same time i love being tattooed and having body mods such as stretched ears. i feel like i have to choose one and i know choosing to be a nurse is the most logical sense able thing to do. its what i should do. its what i would like to do. but i also feel like if i do that, that i will be putting part of myself locked away in a cabinet for a later time. i want to be my whole self all the time not just part of myself.

1:34 am  •  10 May 2011